The Mystery and Blessing of Physical Pain

by Silvia J. Pancaro February 4, 2006

1:40 pm – Roswell, Georgia

How often have we ‘cursed’ the pains that our bodies go through at various points in our lives? Yes, we’ve all had everything from a minor headache to broken bones to life threatening illnesses throughout the course of our lives. And we’ve all wished the pain away, gone to medical doctors to prescribe pain killers and worked with various healing modalities in order to cure us of our ailments. And why shouldn’t we? After all it is very uncomfortable to go through our day living in pain – whether it’s a momentary one or its chronic version. We can’t focus on our daily duties if we have a migraine and we can’t do all our usual ‘doings’ if we have a broken leg or sprained ankle and we can’t live our lives in the usual manner if we have a disease which leaves us with nothing to focus on than the healing of the physical pain. Who wants to live with pain?

I propose that pain is the proverbial blessing in disguise that can potentially lead us to an Awakening of sorts – which actually leads us to the Golden Door of Freedom within our Souls. “How can that be?” you ask. Well, consider that Life boils down to CONSCIOUSNESS and that Consciousness demands an Awareness of itself in order to function at its utmost level….most of us tend to ‘fall asleep’ and go into an ‘automated’ functioning in our daily lives. We forget who we are and what we are here to do – basically, from a metaphysical perspective, to return ‘Home.’  We get caught up in the ‘matrix’ of day-to-day survival and all that it implies. Even those of us that are on a ‘spiritual’ path and dealing with that aspect, can fall into the illusion of the spiritual chase and become just as ‘lost’ as those who are caught up in their chase for money and fame. It’s very easy for this ‘falling asleep’ and ‘automatic functioning’ to happen to the very best of folks.

So, how does pain fit in with all that? Well, when we go into automatic mode, we lose our sense of the awareness of Higher Truth…right?  If we are not aware of where we are and where we are really going, we end up in a vicious cycle and even though it looks as if we are moving towards something, we are trapped in a ‘torrus donut’ where the energy just circles and circles into itself. What we need is to be fully conscious individuals in order to turn our energy into a Spiral, up towards a Freedom which is actually beyond words, beyond any kind of description.  If we are in ‘auto’ then we need something, some ‘bolt of lightening’ to shake us up out of our comfort zone – and if we don’t do it the easy way, then surely our Angelic/Higher Self will send forth the message via our bodies, in a way that will totally shock us.  Yes, it is painful and yes it’s totally uncomfortable, and yes it can even disrupt our daily lives – but that is EXACTLY THE POINT!  When we fall asleep, sometimes we are so very deeply asleep that all the loving nudging in the world by our parent or lover or child won’t serve to ‘wake us up’ so quite frankly, a bucket-full of ice water just may be what our Angelic/Higher Self prescribes! 

And when we fall into the pit of self-pity (or the New Age equivalent would be running from channeler to healer to seminar to any other self-help methods), we ‘pray’ for an end to the apparent psycho-emotional issue or we might even pray for some ‘good’ to keep us on our spiritual path – and the answer to the prayer just may be that physical pain or ailment that so disrupts our daily lives.

It forces us to look deeper, if we don’t get too involved with the actual pain itself by trying to ‘relieve’ it.  If we ask ourselves, why does my back hurt so much? Or what is this headache really all about? Perhaps we say, I wonder why I broke my foot? And even, what is this Cancer trying to tell me to truly heal? When we ask our Selves (ie, Angelic/Higher Self) these types of questions, THEN and ONLY THEN are we truly on the way to Absolute Healing.  If we consider that the body (and all third dimensional, physical ‘reality’) is nothing more than the externalization of what is ‘within’ – being our Spirit and Soul – our Emotions and our Mind – then we can begin to shift the way we look upon the pains which can at times plague our bodies.  The trick is knowing when to listen…do you ‘get the message’ when you get the first hint of a low-grade headache – or do you wait to ‘listen’ until it’s become a raging migraine? It’s a great thing to be so in tune with your Angelic/Higher Self that if you are ‘off-base’ and starting to fall asleep, not getting the initial ‘hints’ so that what could have been a gentle nudge turns into the ice cold bucket of water via a growing pain that turns into a chronic pain or a full blown dis-ease.

It boils down to choosing how we look at our bodies – as curses or temples? I for one, used to feel very differently about my body…I thought I was ‘trapped’ in this physical nightmare and dreamed of other ‘worlds’ and all I was concerning myself with was my ‘spiritual’ Journey. I believed that being ‘here’ with 2 arms, 2 legs, blood, sweat and tears plus a skeletal system, internal organs and all physical sensations, was a trap, a curse, a punishment, and a sacrifice that “I” in my spiritual BE-ingness made for some greater cause, which of course I believed was to ‘save’ all others. That’s actually a trap that most ‘new agers’ and ‘semi-enlightened’ people have fallen into – it’s all nice and dandy to believe that we sacrificed our fully-evolved souls in order to return to the physical dimension to help others who had yet to experience the ‘One-ness’ of  the ‘real’ world…typical martyrdom and saviour complex…but the fact is, that we are here to ‘save’ only ourselves – to ‘enlighten’ only those parts of our Selves that we lost somewhere along the Path – to ‘awaken’ that ego-tistical/ego-centric aspect of our True Self that got caught up on the Grand Illusion of all great illusions:  that of believing that we are already “One” with All That Is, but if we were, we wouldn’t be believing that the saving of our Earth/Humanity is up to us…how haughty of us to believe that the Allness of which we are a part, needs any saving!  God/dess is so much greater than that! And I believe (FINALLY), what we forgot is that we are hear simply to remember to love and en-JOY the experience we are creating….so that first and foremost we must remember that the Human Body (and the Earth herself) are vehicles for the Express-ion of our Divine Natures…and from that place of understanding we can learn to listen to its signs, including the physical pain we might feel from time to time, as promptings from our Divine Self to remember that the only thing we really have to be “AWARE” of is that it’s all a Journey…one that we must en-JOY, like when we go on vacation to the Carribbean or to Europe or on safari to Africa, etc…while at the same time, returning to the God/ddess Self from which we came…instead of believing that we need to ‘cure’ anything at all – Earth, our bodies or other people.  It’s the ultimate in human hubris – to feel that without our input, Life cannot continue – God is Life – and God is Eternal…and although we are a Part of that Eternal God BE-ingness, it’s not our temporal human expression that will affect it – but re-member-ing that God expresses through us…

So, the next time you get some pain in the neck, maybe it’s God trying to get your attention…saying, “Hey, Silvia, did you forget? You are not apart from me, but “A PART OF ME”…wake up and smell the roses…go for a motorcycle ride in the country with Marcus and Sebi…stop trying so hard to save the world and just re-turn to me…I’m here…stop trying so hard and JUST BE.”

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